Dama ko ang lungkot. . .

Sa lamig ng hanging dala ng pasko,
Dama ko ang lungkot sa puso ko,
Kasama ng mga alaalang iniwan mo
Na hindi ko mabura sa isipan ko..

Sa tagal ng panahong lumayo ka
Tanging bakas ng kahapon ang natira,
Mga masasayang sandali na kasama ka
Nagdadala ng luha sa’king mga mata

Pa’no magiging masaya itong pasko
Kung nag-iisa ako at sugatan ang puso
Kahit magpanggap akong masaya
Alam mong ang lahat ay pawang maskara,

“Ayoko na!!!”

Gusto ko na makalaya,
Sa pagmamahal
Sa paghinhintay
At ang umasa…

Sa aking pag-iisa..
Muli kong ibabalik ang ating ala-ala.
At sisikapin kong maging masaya
Habang dinadaya ang katotohanang wala ka na.

“Mahal kita!”

Sapat na yon para kalimutan kita
Ang lahat ay mabubura
At ang panahon ay mag-iiba
Balang araw makakalimot din ako..

Dadamhin ko ang lungkot,
Habang malamig ang hangin
Para maihayag ko sa langit
Na ito’y ngayon lang, bukas matatapos din..

Ang Pagkilala . . .

Dalawampu't isang taon na ang nakakalipas, isang batang babae ang isinilang sa lugmok na hirap, salat sa materyal na bagay, at tanging sandigan lamang sa buhay ang magulang na nagsisikap, sa murang isipan, batid nya na ang lahat, ngunit tulad ng ibang bata, di lubos ang pang-unawa,..sa pagtahak sa daan tungo sa hinaharap, sayad sa lupa ang gapang upang sya'y makatapos, ngunit hindi dito nagtatapos ang lahat, ito'y simula lamang ng panibagong landas....

nagsusumikap at patuloy na lumalaban, ang hirap ay di alintana, sapagkat sapat na ang pamilyang buo at matatag, walang unos ang makakatibag, sa batang lumaking matatag. ang dating kubong tahanan, lumaki na ng tuluyan, mga magulang nyang inaalipusta nagsumikap at pinatunayan na ang pagkukutya at walang magagawa...ang lahat ng nangtapak ngayo'y buong suyong nagmamakaawa...mga taong dati'y lubos kung sila'y isumpa!

alam ng Maykapal ang lahat ng ito, saksi Sya sa hirap na kanilang natamo. Ang batang ito ay ganap ng malaya, matapang, ngunit mapang-unawa, sa lahat ng kanilang nalampasan, ang ginhawa noong kanilang inaasam ay bukas palad na nakamtam sa tulong ng Maykapal...

walang bagyong makakapinsala, walang salitang makakababa, walang taong pwedeng mangutya, dahil buong puso kong pinagmamalaki na "Kung ano ang meron kami yun ay mula sa pawis nila, at Kung sino ako...yun ay dahil sa kanila...."

ito ay isang Pagkilala, Pagmamalaki at Pag-alala.. Pasasalamat sa magandang bukas, at sa patuloy na paggabay sa aming lahat, ako'y hindi na bata, -ako ang May-akda....

ang isinulat kung ito'y pagpapatunay lamang...

na buong puso kong pinagmamalaki sa lahat

ang aking mga Magulang....

Pa, Ma... Salamat sa lahat!...

hindi sa malaking bahay,

magarang sasakyan,

o mga materyal na bagay...

kundi sa walang katulad nyong "Pagmamahal.."

. . . magiging masaya ako”.

Umuulan nanaman hindi sa labas,
Kundi sa loob ng puso ko,
Basa na ng luha ang unan ko..
Ang bawat patak nito sinisigaw…

“Pagod na kooo!!!”

Ginawa ko na lahat para sayo,
Bakit kailangang magkaganito.?
Wag na tayo maglaro,
Tama na!!! suko na ko..

Tumigil ka na!!!!!
Ayoko na ng gulo…
Tama nga sila..,
Lahat ng tao..nagbabago…

“Kalimutan mo na ko”

Yun ang gusto ko..
Para sa ganon pareho tayo
Magsimula ng panibago
at magpakatotoo..

“Tapus na to!”

Hanggang dito nalang tayo
Bukas wala nang bagyo..
Sisikat uli ang araw..
Para sakin at sayo.


“at makikita mo, magiging masaya ako..”

Ayoko masanay sa mga bagay

na pwede namang wala sa buhay ko. - Bob Ong

Our Christmas Tree..

in the silence of the night,

with the twingkling of the lights,

our house filled with love,

as we made this picture above,

Our Christmas Tree..

this yultide season,

brings joy and peace..

it delighted my heart

and forget all my fears..

every time i look,

to the beauty of this tree..

it reflects my family,

and God as the star on it..

no matter what troubles,

trails or frustration,

we surpass them all..

as one family..

we remain strong

and keep on moving on

with the love and respect

we build this tree..

and it will be forever,

though this season ends..

our FAMILY TREE...

remains still..forever..

-its the meaning of Christmas to..

to celebrate it with love and peaceful heart,

with our love ones-fallenheart-

If only you knew....

you look at me so close
I wonder what’s inside your thought..
I smile, as I stared back at you
Then suddenly, you get confused..

I said… ”what’s the matter?”
You answered…” nothing..”
Then I started to laugh at you..
And you quickly get excuse…

Sitting beside you,
my eyes begin to sight
that each time I speak up..
you can’t help, but look me into my eyes…

as I mingled with other peers,
I know your staring back,
And when I start to leave,
You begin to shout.. ”hey...wait up!”

As we walked along the way,
I’ve notice you want to say something,
But till we reached our house..
Still you said nothing….

I don’t understand..
Why you acted that way,..
We’ve been friends for a long time..
What happened, what’s wrong my dear friend?..

I heard news that you decided to leave
Far from our town, far from me..
You don’t even say a word..
Even “Goodbye”,. That’s what I feared.

I cried the day you go,
Especially when I’ve got this message
A text from you that day.. it says
“ see u n tym, wen I alredi hav a guts to tell you how I feel
….jst be hapi bes.. l love you..”

If only I knew…
I will hold you back and never let you go…

because..."I love you too bes.."

but you too never knew...=,(

”wHy Do I cRy??”

"wHy Do I cRy??"

TheRe’s A sMaLL dRoP, faLLiNG On PlaIn,
WHiLE My TEaRdRoPs, ShoWiNg WitH pAiN..
WhILe HeAvY sOuNd, kEeP dIgGInG On ThE gRoUNd,
I KePt QuIeT To Let HiM SoMeBOdY FoUnD,

I’Ve tRiEd TO sHoUteD a LOuD,
BuT ThErE’S No WoRDs To cOmE Out,
aNd tHeN, yOu tUrN ArOund,
sAyiNG.. YoU DoN’T wAnT To hEArD aNy sOuNd!,

UNtiL I aSk MYseLf On” WhY Do I cRy?”
aFtEr I leT hiM WaLKed On hiS Side,
wItH ThEsE TEaRDrOps, I kEpT And HIdE,
I FiNaLLy tOoK Up wITh tHis gReAtfUL PRIDE..

hOw Do I wIsH, tHAt He Let ME Try,
To EXprESS How I FeEL iNsIdE…
ThaT Im rEaLLY hUrT TO tEll hIm “GOODBYE..”

bUt wHaT ShoULD I do??

“please tell me why?”

"I’m going to smile and make you think I’m happy,

I’m going to laugh, so you don’t see me cry,

I’m going to let you go in style,

and even if it kills me

- I’m going to smile."

_fallenheart03_

……DAHIL SAYO….

Naranasan ko magmahal,..
Masaktan,..
Lumaban,..
At muling bumangon..

dahil sayo…

nag-iba ang pananaw ko sa mundo
binuksan mo ang mga mata ko,
tinuruan mo akong magpahalaga sa lahat ng tao
at higit kong nakilala ang sarili ko..

dahil sayo…

marunong na ko ngumiti,
maging masaya sa lahat ng sandali,
na ang buhay natin ay maikli,
kaya ang nararamdaman ay hindi dapat ikubli..

dahil sayo…

naging maganda ang mundo,
walang problema at sakit ng ulo…
pakiramdam ko, ang lahat ay bago..
kung saan, ikaw at ako lang ang tao..

dahil sayo…

naniwala ako..
na ang lahat ng ito ay totoo..
pero bakit ganun,?” bakit nagkaganito?”…
bigla nalang dumilim ang ating mundo..

nasan ka na?

bakit bigla ka naglaho,?
pano na ang lahat ng ating pangako?
Tuluyan nalang ba lahat mag-lalaho…?

Bakit???

Sana sinabi mo nalang agad..
dahil paano na? saan ako mapapadpad?
kung ang mundong ito ay pawang mga pangarap,
na likha lamang ng isip kong naghahangad..

dahil sayo….

Para sayo….

Ang lahat ng ito……..


____fallenheart____

Trying To Say All That Lies Within

Life begins an unusual trend,

From the start, till the end,

Have been trying to live tall,

But things eventually get a downfall,

Silence does mean a lot,

I’ve been so silent for all that thought,

Loosing everything for what I fought,

But there is something dear that I’ve lost,

A need for change I began to feel,

All these cuts & so many burns to heal,

I’ve been trying to say all that’s within,

But all I manage to give is a grin,

This negativity has placated my mind,

My emotions are the ones I’m bind,

Tried to say all that’s on my mind,

But consequences are all that I can define,

Pain & remorse have been my friends,

They keep pushing me from all ends,

Tried to own all this torture I go through,

But I feel weak; I know it’s true

You’ve been my thought; you’ve been my strength

,You’ve been the one I’d always depend,

Tried to tell you all this truth,

But all along I was afraid to loose you,

Read my mind, read these tears,

Read these lines of despair my dear

,I’ve tried to tell all that lies within,

But you never asked me why I grinned?

-copied on site:)
-credits goes to the author

maghihintay ako..

malungkot mag-isa...
mahirap ang walang kasama,
masakit isipin,
na sa loob ng matagal na panahon
hinihintay padin kita, heto't ako...umaasa..

nakakapagod....
nasan ka na ba?
pagod na akong lumuha,
humiling na sana nandito ka..

bawat minuto, bawat oras... lagi kita hinahanap,
gusto ko makasama ka, pero bakit hindi kita makita...
kahit isigaw ko ng malakas ang lahat,....
alam kong bingi ang langit kahit tanaw nya ang aking paghihirap...

batid ko ang lahat ay nakatakda para sa atin,
bagamat ang lungkot ng mga sandaling pinapalipas natin..
kelan ko ba madarama na ako'y may halaga rin,
paano ba ang magmahal at ang mahalin din...??

nais ko lang naman, maranasan ang magmahal,
kung ito man ang mahalagang biyaya ng maykapal...
hindi ba ako nararapat, isa ba akong hangal..?
mali ba ang humingi ng totoong pagmamahal..???

alam kong darating ang panahong makikilala kita..
isang taong batid kong, bigay sakin ni AMA...
hindi ako susuko, at maglalaro sa iba....
pagkat alam kong nandyan ka.... para sa akin di ba..?

maghihintay ako...
pagod man ang puso,
lumuluha man ako..
hindi ako magsasawa..

hanggang sa dumating ka..

pangako........
maghihintay ako....

To my beloved "Nanay"...

I will never forget you...

We have different stories, and each story has a different character that plays a special role in our lives. Everyone has its purpose and importance; their existence cannot be replaced or compared to anyone.

In my life, I valued and appreciate all the people I met. Each has its own importance and contribution to who I am right now. But there is one person that means a lot to me… the person I will never forget.

I used to be with her, she’s my mentor, fan, adviser… my comforter…my “Nanay”… my one and only grandma, My Dad’s mom who already passed away.

When I was young this woman had become my 2nd mom… she bring and fetch me up after school, I can still remember how often we walked together, she make sure to buy anything I want, that time when the only thing I know was to eat and play. I don’t even appreciate her effort, those simple things she did to make me happy.
We used to be together, she’s always on my side when I need her. She hugs me tight when I cried, and she open her arms when I run to her each time my mom scold me. She laughs when I danced, though I’m not good at it. She’s my best friend and the best grandma in the whole world.

Her pale, wrinkled face those shaking-tired hands and her soft lips as she smiles go to be unnoticed. It’s a remark that this woman has no longer getting young, that time when I realized this… it’s already too late.

Regret and frustrations conquered me each time I remember how I missed the opportunity to tell her how thankful I am for everything. If only I can turn back the time and be with her again, I will do anything she wish for, I’ll take care of her and make sure to be on her side wherever she go. I’d like to pay back all what she had been done for me. If only I could, I definitely would.

The happy times and simple things that we shared, makes me long for my childhood days, were toys can be put away, but let my dear grandma stay. I know this will never happen, but she will be forever kept here in my heart, wherever I go, whatever I do. She’s a part of me, and the person I will never ever forget, till eternity.

Paano na?

masakit isipin, na sa kabila ng lahat ng ating pinagsamahan,

sa mga simpleng asaran at tampuhan, lagi tayo nagdadamayan,

ngunit bakit kailangang sa bandang huli, paalam ang katapusan...?

paano na ang lahat ng bagay na ating iniingatan?

ang mga sandaling lagi tayong nagtatawanan..

ang walang humpay mung banat ng kalokohan,

halos di matapos ang oras, sa haba ng kwentuhan,

napapawi ang pagod na ating pinagdaanan..

ang bawat sakit at luha, sayo ko binubuhos,

kahit minsan paulit-ulit nalang ang unos

lagi ka nandyan para sakin at sa iba,

pero di ko nakita ang tunay mong halaga....

kapag malungkot ako, nandyan ka para mang-inis

kahit minsan masakit, "sige lang, ikaw kasi!"

kapag wala ka para akong may sakit,..

di ako makangiti, lagi akong masungit...

ikaw ang nagturo sakin maging masaya,

binago mo ang takbo ng mundo ko sakanya

ang dati kong sarili hindi ko na makita,

"iba na ko..." salamat sayo ha!!"

alam kong hindi tama, ang nararamdaman ko.

batid kong, kaibigan lang ako para sayo...

pero hindi ko naman ito ginusto,

kaya....

Paano na?

Paano na nga ba tayo??

ayokong mawala ka, pero di naman pwedeng maging tayo

maaari bang manatili ka lang..bilang kaibigan ko..

at pag dumating ang araw na kaya ko na pakawalan ka..

iwan mo ko, pero wag mo kalimutan ang lahat pwede ba?

ps. para sa isang taong minahal ko, ngunit kaibigan lang ako sakanya..

salamat sa lahat, sa pag-intindi, at pagdamay,...

" pangako...magiging masaya ako..para sayo.."---vhyne

i am but a clown..

i often remember the moments we share,

i still can't forget the smile and your stare

how i wish i can go back the time... i will.

and never let you go!..i would rather be still.

i love it when you laugh, when i crack jokes,

no matter how stupid or corny it may looks,

the way you smile at me and tell me..."You're so cute"..

it makes me feel heaven, but then i reply.."Asus! etchoes!"

You have no idea, how you mean to me,

i persume you don't know how i used to be,

for you I am but a clown, but deep within me..

is a wouded crying lady,... wishing to be free...

this mask that i wear, will soon be forget,

but the good times we share, are yours to kept.

i maybe a clown..that seems to be always happy...

but its only you..who can make it all...reality...

Please peel the cover that your eyes can see

cause, what within me is my real identity,

in this carnival world of magical stories,

the actor and actresses would be YOU and ME..

PS. sa isang taong...lagi kong pinapatawa,

ewan ko ba, kung bakit gusto kita,

kahit wala ka na.. lagi mo tatandaan..

naging masaya ako,.. at nakilala kita..

sana mas maging maligaya ka sa kanya...

nga pla, salamat sa lahat ha..^_^----fallenheart---

wHy Do ThEsE tEaRs FaLL?

Every night before i close my eyes to sleep

my thoughts are hunted with your memories

the time when we were together has faded

leaving me bruise, hurt, lying like a coma patient.

Those sweet times, laughter and confessions

friendly get together that seems like a deepest possession

of how much love we kept like a forbiden question,

will you and I can fall to the love passion?

These tears are keep falling down my blush.

with all the heartaches i wanted to flush,

if only you can open you heart for last,

and let me take an empty part of your past.

But how can it happen if you don't see

these feelings i have for you are glee,

is there any chance for us to be free?

and follow our hearts to what they wanted us to be...

im tired for all the crying times...

the water in me runs out in flood,

im dying inside losing my blood,

without you beside me...Oh! please help me God!!

Why do these tears fall?..down in my face?

this love i had was never been fake..

you are my friend but it should be more than that,

I Love You...with all my heart,...

so please come back....